"Why think of our former lives as reality and this as something else?"

Last Sunday, some of the lockdown measures were eased in England. It’s been a week since then and I still haven’t really done anything differently. I have talked with three friends about meeting up for a socially distant walk or bike ride but haven’t made any set plans. Instead, I’ve been feeling all kinds of anxious again about lockdown being over. Change always does that to me! I spoke last week about not feeling ready but I think there is more going on than that.

I don’t know about you but this whole global pandemic has helped me in some ways see what’s important and what I actually want from life, which for someone as indecisive as me has been a gift. I’ve written before about how it made me realise I want to move back to Shropshire, which I did just before lockdown. But there are other things I have been thinking about doing “when real-life resumes,” and suddenly the prospect of real life is on the horizon and there is that pressure to try and make things like buying a house a rea…